i am tired...... you know like how u dun even feel like climbing out of bed at times..... sometime i think i sleep so much is cos i dun wanna face the world. or its jus cos i like to sleep... i dunno. if yall dunno, i failed JCT...lol.... but im not sad cos i had it coming.... but it is making me panicky... like im so close to alevel but i still cannot squeeze am E in any subject.... it has never happen to me in other times like in primary skool or even Sec skool. i always had control.... but this 2 years is totally out of my control. it makes my so damn panicky inside,,, i just want to breakdown and die...lol. sometimes i can feel my heat race with the thought of Alvl coming.... sucks man i dunno why i dun wanna study.... it seems noone can make me do so.... i am so doomed. i dunno la... maybe i will make it, maybe i will fail... like i said... it is out of my control.
i am tired of life too... not tat i wanna really go die... thats jus so loser. but life is fucking tiring. u have relationships to maintain, ppl to please, exams to study for.... worry for money. why cant ppl jus slack all our life...lol. so many ppl die w/o inventing anything or save anyone.... so why work so hard man.... ya rite,... if u dun work now... u cannot survive in this world...lol..... boo-ness
ranting ranting ranting....BLEAH... blogging is so scary... i dunno why.... I NEED SOMEONE TO BEAT THE CRAP OUT OF ME ( pls dun take it too seriously ppl) OVERNOUT
