its 1++ am now n there is skool tomolo wif chem mock in the same afternoon..... wat a life... this weekend suck man.... i was still happily jogging wif sx on fri then BAAM!! i have a flu the next day..... i totally damn knocked out lah.... i am like a walking tap... i wasted the whole sat sleeping n the next morning i went to tuition( yes, its this mornng). i was dying.... we were doing vectors n i mixed the whole chapter up wif matrices.... i totally dunno how to do... I DUNNO HOW!!! i tink the teacher thinks i dun wanna do or wat... but i really DUNNO!! freaks me out to think tat i oni have two weeks left n i cannot do a single question of vectors.... i ate a clerasil...n slept for 4 hours...lol... try passing tomolo's chem mock man.... i am doing the chi n eng hw now,...lol... i doin the ODAC essay...LOL.... i tink i can go skool tomolo....kao.... i dun wanna go skool nowadays.... its like a waste of my time... cause everyday u go skool... u would be tinking abt the stuff u shld study aft skooll... but aft skool... u r super tired... then u slp.... whooo!! the cycle repeats.... this is my cycle lah..... i am so doomed!! i dunno how ppl pon skool... i can nvr do it.... i dunno y.... guess i am too su la to do it... or its jus nt in my system.... i think complete empathy can never exist in this world.... u may empatise with tat person... but u xan never understand wat he ar she is going thru... like O lels ppl cannot know wat IP ppl n stressing abt... n vice verser....so when some1 says 'i inderstand wat u are going thru' should u believe tat person?? but if no one in the world can understand u... wun u feel so lonely??....emmmmm...... pointless..... OVERNOUT
10:35 AM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
i truely thought tat i was quite smart before.... BEFORE.... well... i get grades tat made me happy. sec 3 was like the best yr lah.... but since the start of sec 4 it has been a downhill ride all the way. i dunno y... i jus cannot get things to work out right, no matter academically or socially or anywhere-ly. i am just a big basketcase.... i dun hav the drive, the brains, the attitude. when everyone else is pia-ing, it turn me off even more. i hate it when ppl wanna study together, or ask me to go out to study. its not cause i dun like them or wat... its jus tat i am very turned off by my lack of focus compared to the rest of the ppl. i would only be a hindrence. maybe its wat my father said lah.... i would never make it into a gd jc. or any jc.... i got like 47/80 for physics paper 2 mock exam. its a veh veh easy paper. even if i get full marks for paper1 n practicle... i cannot get an A. says alot about my prospects of going to a jc doesnt it. in this yr... i have learnt a quality abt myself. i dun wan to let ppl see me fail at something. if i am sad abt something tat i didnt do well, n someone ask me if im okay, i would get veh worked up n snap at tat person. its a ego thing. i would tink they r laughing at me... r they??
todays chem prac is oso another wreck...lol... 2 people broke a full bottle of silver nitrate n a couple of people,including me broke test tubes....n when mrs ong was doing a demo.. she drop the test tube!! i tink cause we today use diff chem lab... so abit suay....lol sorry ner abt pang sheing u....sorry... i didnt know gt the jc tok.... guess my life is a basketcase.... OVER N OUT
