today we had the scoccer com.... great game... guess did not flop as much as we have tot. GREAT JOB TO ALL... i guessed i flopped. if i had controlled the ball properly then there would nop be the penelty kik... we could have gone further.... but at least this hve leh us forget our past unhappiness with teh macpherson ppl n realise that they are nice ppl after all tat kick ass in soccer.... Area peace is VERY IMPT!!
read moses's blog... he talked abt the impotance of religion. i have been a buddist since i duuno when. but was never a faithful one to say the truth. i have never gone to a real temple, i have never gave up my meat, i dun understand the chanting stuff, i have never eva do anything buddist-ish. but i believe I am still a buddist.
it is good to know that u have someone watching over u when u go for solo-night walk. when u are afraid, u could clutch on to the pendant near to ur heart n instantly find the comfort n assurence u need. i was never so religious... moses inspied me. i always wanted to explore this religion further... guess my family background does not provide the suitable environment to do so....
(if u are very in to christ then u better skip this.) i never understood christianity. i dun under stand how could a person rise frm the dead!! it is jus so unbelievable(sorry)!!! i dunno how ppl could have so much faith in some 1 so unreal.... n if he is so forgiving n all... y does he only save those tat believe in him... n leave the rest to rot in hell??(sorry).... i feel it is indirectly saying that the other religion are fakes.... i feel insulted...
before u ppl wanna hammer me... let me finish... then i realise, actually non of the religion are believable... humans are weak creatures tat need something to lean on to in times of need. religion is one of them. n natually, u would want ur religion to be the BEST!!! so...
u may think i am an anti-christ... i admit tat i was quite irritated by ppl hu keep pulling young kids into church n stuff. but i have nothing against the religion itself...its jus my views....
then it brings me to a point of destiny...or u may say fate... i belive that life is a road with countless cross roads. along the way u find companions that would come n leave, depending on the direction u take.ur destiny is in ur own hands. but the ppl u meet n the option uhave are all fated, destined. meaning its a mix between fated n ur own choice. its like a multiple choice question. so cherish ur companions n choose the right choices... dun becouse of a small misunderstanding... n u loose a valuable companions inthis lone path of life....
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7:10 AM
today is like damn sway lor... i admit tat i say the community chest thinghy until damn er... but tats nt the pt... i jus wanna say.. TT duraiTTduraiTTduraiTTduraiTTduraiTTDURAI!!!!! cum hit me lah!! lol... i dun blame u moses...i blame on our ignorence or rather carelessness...
today the sald making thing was crap lah... we walk to the room then mdm lim shock tio...lol... apparently 3c is nt suppose to be in this crap.... nvm.. we still did it... it was rather akward cause there are only 2 out of the 17 tems are frm sec 3... 3c is the only class tat didnt bring apron n stuff... so we went there n throw fce lor... then when i cut fruits rite... i tou tou eat... then kena caught by miss koh... then scold me... so malu...lol...
mrs lim actually came to judge tis crap...lol.. so nice... in the end i tonk a sec 2 team won...lol... crap...
sat is soccer com... die lah... dun care liao... after being an NCO... i realise u have to jus let go of stuff... if u focus on every detail... u will die.. so u have to DUN CARE!!! so if we lose...DUN CARE!! lol....
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8:38 AM
this post have a speacial mission... to tell the world tat np ppl are nt sad ani more....lol. these days we seem moody n stuff... but now its BACK TO NORMAL!! i hope....
realise 1 thing abt np... it changes ppl. its surprising how it can change the whole character of a person.often in a good way. it makes people willing to sacrifice their time and effort in things tat never matters but in the end feel happy abt it....
it makes people pursure not fame or fortune but happiness n friendship... but tats when u are in sec 1 and 2... when u are all covered up in pretty little cocoons....
when u are in sec 3 n 4... reality kicks in... u realise that u expect something in return after a sacrifice. a simple 'thank you' dont work anymore. only with fame n fortune then u get friendship and happiness...
seriously i dunno wat i toking lah... jus wanna write all these to sound cheem....lol...
recently there is this person tagging at ppl's blog... quite irritating lah... maybe u wanna think of him as a lonely soul with a really big ego but have teeny weeny guts... lol...to ta person if u ever get to read tis...GET A LIFE...lol... y do i bother to tok to him huh...i muz be bored...
i confess something veh bad i did,,lol... i call my papa to buy white paper cauz no more liao...then he keep forgetting... then i need tat day n he still nver buy... so i giv him black face... then he go n buy....lol.. feel so damn bad...lol \... actually i dun need it as urgently as i made it to be... wah... feel so bu4 xiao4...lol... scarly i day kena stike by lightning... ppl out there... BE GD TO UR PARENTS HOR!!...lol
actually i got nothing to tok about leh... jus wanna sya i haven do moi hw... three more days to skool..HOW!!
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10:20 PM
understanding... people always say they understands.... isit true?? but without understanding... the relationship would not work out... may it be friendship or watever...
so shld ppl try to understand other ppl...
i have never ever felt so damn alone...lol... tis feeling suck... no body understands... does my communication skills sucks tat bad??
some body told me tat we worry for others not the other way round... i do not have such noble mind sets... i am a selfish n self centred gal. i wan ppl to understand ME!!
u all have ppl to guide u, ppl to tell u wat to do... pass u the experience... but we dunt!! nobady cares if we die.. nobody bothers if we are sad... nobody think we even exist. pls... giv us sum attention... i mean US... pls...
to tat somebody... i thank u... i cansider u to be in the same boat as me... sad... such a big boat but there is oni 2 members... no other boats seem to care... they jus pass by... minding their own business...
im not seeking for attention... but at least give some basic attention as human beings can...
all the above is written in a bad mood... tis post is purely used to vent my fustration.. so...
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5:06 AM
yesterday was the start of the end *quote yongqiang*
how true it was... after 1 more year, its our turn to be passing out... really hope the passing out ncos n cis enjoyed them selves yesterday...
yesterday was rather smooth sailing.. unfortunatly, there was still the endless waaitings. when i was a cadat.. i tot... y r the NCOs so stupid... lete us wait for no reason then blame us in the end when everything gets too messed up. now as a NCO... i realise there is alot of external reasons to consider before u can do anything... waiting is inadvitable... u are the last person to wish to wait for anything,,, letting time slip through your hands... i also realise how difficult to giv similar instructions... we always blame the NCOs when different instructions were given to use... now... i realise even in the 21st centuary.. no matter how advance the communication system is... the human mind is still a complicated mess and our ears, although exist in pairs can only listen to 1 person at a time... haiz...
i cried the least in this pop... its not tat i am any less upset... its jus tat there are too many things that are going on in ur minds... u tend to forgot to express ur sadness...
the concert was better then i have ever expected... the performance of ppl tat u have always define as slackers made u totally forget how they have ever pissed u off... our sqd squeezed out a performance in the end, although it was slip shot and ouviously ill prepared... but it is still 100% sincerity and... it saved time... the ppt was great... but abit too long lah... shld have seperated it some how... its seldom to see any CI express there emotions... three lonely souls in npcc *quote yueling sir* it aches moi heart... for i realise how often i have wronged them n blame them even though i vever tried to understand myself..
thx sandy n jerene for cumming to help... it was very very much appreciated...n kuniawan too... soli if wrong spelling... to sandy n jerene... u never realise how much we have missed u..
read yuting mdm's blog... i realise the importance of keeping our bond strong nomatter how small it was... our bond is small..not weak...
i hope when its our turn to go... i would cry filled wif wonderful memoriesn bu4 she3... not regrets...
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4:19 PM
i know tat blog poat is nt for me... but i choose to take it as it is... if u want me to buzz off... i will... u dun hav to do tis.... i know we dunno anything... i know we havwe been nosey bitches...HAPPY.... if u tink tis way... i got nothing to say... congrats for making me cry again... u are getting good at it...
1:19 AM
change the skin... i personally dun like cyndi but no choice lah...
want to tell u all tat roller balding rox!! i started in primary skool... but stoped playing tis past 2 3 yrs.. yesterday i tried again...n i lurved it!!! it feel as if u are a speed demon... u are king of ECP...lol...
the sec 1s were cute too... veh united... stay tat way okay...
soli poony for not cummin... i got squad stuff...
actually the main thing i want to say is in the 1st santence lah...
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10:34 PM
hi... things tis past 2 days have been....painful...
we know u are sad n dissapointed... we really want to do something... u say words dun help... WE KNOW!! we do... but there is tis pressure for us to keep on trying no matter wat...
the end is coming veh soon... we dun wan u all to bring these bad feelings along... every time u all start toking abt 'the ppl' we try very hard to ignore...very...but they still pour in... each sentance still hurt... tat is why we keep on trying... cauz WE DUNNO WAT TO DO!!! tis feeling of helplessness is crazy... u know there is a problem... but there is no way u can fix it...it sucks.
u may tink it does nt affect us... it is none of our business... but guess wat... it is totally the opposite. u may think we secrtely are happy.. toking to u all is jus a lame way of showing tat we care... u r wrong.
we are in pain... we are STUCK!!
u all say tat u all oni need time... toking is crap... but frm wat we see... time is constantly increasing ur resentment n unhappiness... we are damn scared... we dun wan to lose ppl...
n to tat some1... u say u wanna giv up... does it mean u r deserting me... u wan me to be stuck wif another person... i cannot. i am already trying hard... i noe u r too... but if u every wanna jus giv up... i would break. dun be a loser ass-hole...hang it in there..pls...
we are nt blaming u all for being sad n stuff... but i jus need to show how i am feeling... for u all to try n understand... i dun wan to appear irritating... these 48 hours have been hell... every time u all show ur unhappiness... its torture...
we dun expect u all to not be resentful...but pls dun say u all lose ur passion... it hurts the most... we know wat u all have done... i bet 'the ppl' oso... so pls dun say ur efforts have been wasted...
we know u all will do ur best... we know u all will do ur job... but without the rigyt mentality... u all will be in agony everytime u do it... so dun hate it.. dun lose ur passion...dun blame them...'
overall... its not tat we r saying u all... i jus wan to trash it all out...cauz tears r already nt enough...
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7:05 AM
YOZ PPL!!!!!!! IM BACK!!!!! but i dunno if i will cont hor... so treasure each post like its the last...lol
2day when geri hse for backdrop painting... n of course the usual ppl came... but it was like the funnest n most fulfilling prep yet...
1stly... we muz thank the Sim family for their full support in tis event... not only they provided material suppot(help us sew the back drop... they oso gave us moral support( take our pictures)....a million n billion thx... guess i could say untill here oni lah lah...
today oso realise that Pasir ris is not as ulu as i tot... its nt oni trees n grasses...lol...
i always tot our squad is united when the time calls for it... guess i was wrong. the situation now is in a 'frozen' state...like a cold war... any time it would jus burst when an event occurs...its scary... i dun wan it to crack... 3 yrs... dun tell me it does nt mean anithing to u all... but i guess the ppl tat needs to see tis does nt bother 2 read tis....
skool jus started... n stress jus starts to pour in frm every where... guess tats moi life... u wun know it started till it smacks u rite in the face... tok abt grand entrence...
now is YZ TIME... she goin to hav an album in Aug n maybe a concert in Nov!!! ah!!!lol...
guess tis is y ppl in the city have obsessions... u dun see a farmer staring at his favourite chicken everyday... or wants to know every thing about his favourite cow... idols take us out of our usual routine.... it makes us imagine wat we want..when we want... not forced by ur PW teacher to think of a "creative" idea to let ppl live easier( be lazier).... by THE END OF THE LESSON!!!
tis is the excuse for me loving YZ...lol
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9:20 AM
